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I remember some one said that when you have inspiration from a dream,

you will not remember it.. how beautiful it is..

Some times when you wake up from a dream.. even how bad was the dream,

you will always put a smile because you know there some one to love in this awful world..

but what happen when you open your eyes from your sleep and you suddenly,

just feel pain and your tears came out right away after that you find out this is the reality

not the dream nor imagination what just happen before you sleep. you try to run away

from the pain but there is nothing you can do, only pain and it is hurt.. a lot. when you

think it over and over, it always doesn't make sense.. everything doesn't.

why all those from the yesterday now looks just like a dream. can't it be real?

Why the tears have to came out from a pain? Why those time we were smiling?

Every person have a reason and purpose in their life, all of them seek for happiness even I.

that is why every time you wake up from a deep sleep you can always smile for what you have.

while I lost it.. forever. the thing that I thought I still have it yesterday was just another dream with tracks and now I don't even have a dream. I have nothing .. nothing important as my life goal.

Was I to greedy? Was I to selfish? just because I wanted someone that really spare their personal time just to think of me also mine.. just because they want to know how I am? being care.. and everything in the name of love

nothing in the world is eternal, does love also?

were all the love in the world just a bunch of lies story?